FML today

i was just thinking about what to write here, about how fucked up my day was, when my internet explorer window w 3 fucking tabs suddenly closed. it's like the cherry on top of the amazing pie that was my day.

asher hit me on the head twice today and i got so mad my hands started quivering a little after i finished screaming at him and yanking him until he started sobbing, i hate that i shiver/quiver everytime i scream at someone. it's like a sign of weakness, i feel

and other than that, i'm only getting paid at the end of december, hurray? every single job i get this happens to me, i have so much luck with salaries & money. i can't help but think that at the end of dec i still won't get a single cent bla bla, that would be like a bad nightmare. i mean, loving your job is one thing but not getting paid is another.

tis the season to be jolly my ass

"i've never known a love like this..."

reuben & shyan ning & travis & nigel & cornelius you must all never leave me, never grow up and never move on to the other group, NEVER or i will cry until i can die. next march is my deadline when reuben yeo goes to another centre, it's been 2 weeks and i'm so attached, imagine me in 3 months?
gubler removed from my desktop, replaced w collage of photos taken today w the kiddos. travis looked at me today while hugging his bear, his left hand tapping his thigh. "pat pat" he said. my heart melted, seriously it did.

pay in! still waiting for the childcare one i hope it comes in, if you work 2 weeks do they still pay you? or do they wait till the next month... which is the end of december and if that is so, i'm sorry guys no xmas presents this year! BARGET

I'm thankful for every step I take, every hand I shake, every breath I make, and kisses like snowflakes

tmr sees me at bishan's din tai fung for a scrumptious lunch w my kong ba pau friend, been a long time since we've had a 1-on-1 date, yes? miss you many many, miss my pork chop at DTF even more many!
slogging it out at school tmr morning, bright and early at 8am! so sleepy, do you know that i fell asleep at 9.30 last night after talking to someone, i intended to get up again to unplug my phone from the charger but i woke up at 8am, wtf

thank you wayne, ice & wee2 for the amazing lunch at Marche, next time i promise i won't go off so early to buy my xmas tree okay? next time we go out long long one, don't go vivocity again cos it's fucking crowded with all sorts of people.
miss wongy, miss the girls, come soon please

R

i blog EVERYDAY but what do i do if my exhaustion has ruled out any possibility of a social life after work? last night was the only exception and i came home feeling like i could really lie down at my front door and sleep.

woodlands @ 8am cos of a K2 graduation at RP, crazy waking up at 6am in the morning! hate morning showers, hate waking up so early and taking a bus all the way down. some people didnt make breakfast as promised, still want to pinky promise all? hahaha and you still got the cheek to ask for subway!

im honestly excited about starting school and finishing it(hopefully) and getting my own form class! it's gonna be a real challenge but i guess we learn, 4 days left to pay day! not like my money will be going anywhere. i need to shower and i need to sleep. i have a marche lunch tmr and i can't wait for my chicken breast to come to meeeeee

if you ask me how my night was, i'd reply you w a smile and say "good, thank you". if you asked me how i felt at 7pm, i would've said bad, and i wanted to stay home and eat fish soup cos that's what i'm comfortable with.

but now you ask me, and i'm happy. i had a wonderful time, very unexpectedly. i was super afraid of intial awkwardness and everything but i got over it. by the time we were on the train home i was smiling and unwilling to part! progression progression.

don't know what will happen next but i guess we'll wait & see (: thanks for listening, i could honestly tell you were listening to ALL the bullshit i was talking about

super duper massive

darren told me Muse is coming to Singapore some time next year? the sudden urge to go is so strong based on one video of a live Supermassive Black Hole @ Wembley Stadium, the live music thing is so amazing

blast it in your ears and it's honestly the best thing ever

reubenana

mummy says we will be getting a live christmas tree this year from Ikea, hopefully it hasn't sold out yet cos it's so cool to get a living tree in my house instead of those prastic prastic ones. better still give me a plane ticket out of her and into one of those countries w white snow

cannot stand myself sometimes, was wiping ah fat's sweat on his head today while he had some constipation problems in class and my eyes filled up with fucking tears like a loser till i had to throw the tissue away and run into the bathroom :( and when reubenana didn't come till 11 i had the urge to cry everytime i looked at his aeroplane toy
reubenana/rubina, today came in with a cute bowl haircut that made all the teachers fawn over him! BAO BAO UH REUBEN

sorry my loooove is getting too much, for this little boy that smiles like an angel and behaves like a devil throwing things all over the floor, he touches my star tatt 10x a day! (L)