i'm pretty much hating everything today. i managed to get up and out of bed and on to meet the girls for our much postponed trip to the zoo, and i was fine till the afternoon, till i wanted to just go home and be by myself and cry like a fucking loser.

so we finished off our day and we cabbed home and i went to borrow 3 movies at 12bucks and truth be told i don't even have the mood for movies right now. i don't have the mood for anything today.

some days i'm fine, some i'm not. and i really don't know how to handle myself on days that i just want to slit my throat and perish off the face of the earth.

please. help me.