forget, forgot, forgotten
you've moved on why can't i? you're a boyfriend to someone else now why can't i?
nobody will ever understand what i've been through to get to you, nobody will ever know what kind of shit i went through to be with you, NO ONE. i don't think i'm in love with you anymore for i know what you're capable of, but a part of me still wants to be protective of you and take care of you and make sure you're free from harmful things(aka slutfuck) but what do i do to tell you this? how do i tell you to not ruin your life and break your heart without seeming as though i'm acting on my jealous impulses? how do i tell you that you are a good person and you deserve someone better than me, better than her? we will never be tgt again and it's not a case of if-i-cant-have-you-no-one-else-can, cos we all deserve happiness and i'm not god to say what you can and cannot have and do. i'm on the path of moving on so i'm okay. it's just these weird little moments that i suddenly feel a compulsion to tell you all these things, and this is probably the only way i can get it out of my system. someone else's smile is giving me the chills now, someone else talking to me is making me excited, so you're not the one anymore. but you were my comfort zone and now you're someone else's. i hate her, i hate her for stealing you away w her disgusting claws but i love her for making you smile for once in your life. i'm torn between being a selfish bitch and being a nice person. it's all in the mind, i need a jog i need my best friend i need that someone's beautiful smile and adorable words. i need to be free from you, i need to bury my memories of us and start afresh, and maybe one day in the future, we'll be friends and we'll talk about our own significant others as we laugh together. maybe. but for now, i want to forget. i want to forget every single good thing we ever had, i want to forget all images of you smiling and poking and laughing, i want to forget i ever made you happy. i want to forget.
i. want. to. forget.
i need to be away from you, i need to be able to completely forget about you. i don't regret the 3years, i don't. but how do i forget?
how did you?
nobody will ever understand what i've been through to get to you, nobody will ever know what kind of shit i went through to be with you, NO ONE. i don't think i'm in love with you anymore for i know what you're capable of, but a part of me still wants to be protective of you and take care of you and make sure you're free from harmful things(aka slutfuck) but what do i do to tell you this? how do i tell you to not ruin your life and break your heart without seeming as though i'm acting on my jealous impulses? how do i tell you that you are a good person and you deserve someone better than me, better than her? we will never be tgt again and it's not a case of if-i-cant-have-you-no-one-else-can, cos we all deserve happiness and i'm not god to say what you can and cannot have and do. i'm on the path of moving on so i'm okay. it's just these weird little moments that i suddenly feel a compulsion to tell you all these things, and this is probably the only way i can get it out of my system. someone else's smile is giving me the chills now, someone else talking to me is making me excited, so you're not the one anymore. but you were my comfort zone and now you're someone else's. i hate her, i hate her for stealing you away w her disgusting claws but i love her for making you smile for once in your life. i'm torn between being a selfish bitch and being a nice person. it's all in the mind, i need a jog i need my best friend i need that someone's beautiful smile and adorable words. i need to be free from you, i need to bury my memories of us and start afresh, and maybe one day in the future, we'll be friends and we'll talk about our own significant others as we laugh together. maybe. but for now, i want to forget. i want to forget every single good thing we ever had, i want to forget all images of you smiling and poking and laughing, i want to forget i ever made you happy. i want to forget.
i. want. to. forget.
i need to be away from you, i need to be able to completely forget about you. i don't regret the 3years, i don't. but how do i forget?
how did you?
posted by samantha at
Friday, July 24, 2009
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