it's like a mixture of feelings, like someone makes you want to rip your heart out but someone else is there to open up a jar of butterflies in your tummy.

but anw i was reading fuzhen's blog, old posts in her archives and omg do i miss sec school or what. i was so happy about everything and nothing seemed big enough for me to cry about, but i still did.

and i read a post about fauzi omg i remember how he used to spoil me silly with presents on an almost daily basis and recordings of our first experiences and stuff, i miss having a normal relationship. (i don't miss fauzi please do not misinterpret)

but it's okay, i'm sure my time will come again when i'll find someone who'll knock me off my feet and be nice to me... i hope.

& all of a sudden i miss my girlfriends, all of them. speaking of which it's 2:33am on July 27th, so i'm guessing it's Happy Birthday, Amanda Misso.

god i miss her.