serious case of insomnia

i think, actually i know, that i should and will not get into another relationship after my disaster of a failed last relationship. the pain is too much to bear, the tears come so hard and so fast you don't know how to choke back your sobs in time to go to sleep, the sleepless nights thinking if he's being faithful to you, if he's lying in bed at the same time you are instead of out somewhere else, it's just plain painful.

i'm not good at relationships. i suck at them, i don't know when to tarik, i don't know when to let go, i don't know many things and i don't know how to be a good girlfriend. for everybody's sake i shall leave all the good people alone and not bring them into my crazy neurotic world where i do things to chase them away unintentionally.

i really need sleep omg tequila sunrise stirring in my belly, goodbye

P.S I'M A PATHETIC STALKER HAHAHAHA