Wong,
You really have no idea how tough it is for me to be w/out you for so many months. Life hasn't been good, it has been tiring & stressful and nothing is going right anymore. Every single day i'm fighting this losing battle, so to speak. I wake up exhausted and go to bed wide awake. Studying, working, blogshop & personal relationships are taking too much of a toll on me. People are too fake, i'm too gullible. I'm afraid, & ive become so weak. Before you left for Birmingham, i became so strong and independent that you said you preferred this person i became. Coincidentally, my bravery flew off the same time you did.
I need to escape all of this. I just cried so hard because i am under so much pressure and all of a sudden things w him became so bad(read my msn offline convo), it's really not something i need right now.
I need to have so much more courage, i really do.
I need you the most my best best best best best friend.

i miss you so much

Sam