Loneliness

is a sucky feeling that no one in this world should be put through. it drills right through your heart and makes you feel worthless.

i know it's okay to be single, to not have a boyfriend at the age of 21. it's not like i'm the only one who's single, but i'm probably the only one in my circle of friends who is in a job that will ENSURE that i stay single for the rest of my life haha. i know it's way too early to think of marriage and starting a family and all that crap, but i'm TWENTY ONE. i'm not getting any younger, i'm only getting more afraid with each passing day. i'm super paranoid about not being able to find someone by the time i turn 27 or 28 or something.

and i'm so afraid of finding someone and having to go through the same shit all over again. i don't want to fall out of love again, i don't want to go through what i did and i don't want to be heartbroken again.
azfar, do you finally see what you did to me?

i can honestly cry just thinking about this, seriously.
:( :(