nobody except some of my colleagues will ever understand this feeling that i'm getting right now. afraid, unsure, nervous, upset, angry, devastated, unwilling to let go. i'm not one who likes change, but then again don't people always say that the only constant in life is change?

i cannot let go of my friends at work and of course, of the children. i'm already preparing thoughts for what to give the children i've grown so much with, who have been there since day 1 and who have been my inspiration to go to work. as i think back on all those times, i want to cry, but i force myself to be strong.

there is not a single child that i hate, not a single child i would protect no matter what. they are not mine, but i've spent so much time with them that i feel as though they've become a large part of my life. at the end of the day, they go home to their parents and i go out to meet my friends, but there are just some things that i can never forget.

i excitedly and animatedly re-enact what happened in the classroom to my family & friends, only because they have brought me so much joy. children forgive & forget so easily, so it's safe to say that they probably won't even remember who i am, but i will also remember them for the joy that they have brought into my life.

:(

i will miss all of you so, so much.

thank you for loving me despite the shoutings, scoldings, making fun of.... everything. they are the only people who will love you in spite of all your imperfections. they don't care what you look like or how you treat them, because they have so much love that no matter how much i reprimand them, they always come running to me at the end of the day armed with a big hug and a kiss ready.

sorry i just remembered how nigel literally ran and hugged me with his cheek pressed against mine right after i scolded him hahaha how cuuuuute