wayne, you are completely not alone. read on, and you will understand.

i find it so hard. i find it amazing how some girls are so strong(like my joey :D) and so independent that even breaking up doesn't faze them. i am NOT pathetic ok and i DO NOT enjoy talking about azfar, but i hate to admit that there are certain instances that make me think of him immediately. like really, today, before we watched Kung Fu Panda 2, i was all whiny about watching Xmen. suddenly i remembered how azfar used to give in to whichever movie i wanted to watch and i'd always get my way with him.

my friends know how much i hate watching movies. i think it's a waste of time and i refuse to watch movies no matter what. but azfar was just different. i would watch anything he wanted to, no matter how bloody retarded. seriously.

i guess i miss the company somehow, but i also know how much better off i am without it. i miss the comfort and the way we used to talk. and that smile. that stupid annoying irritating big fat smile.

i hate you.